Disability Week

This is my daughter Michaella, this was taken yesterday at SM Molino, for the celebration of Disability Week, which they titled... Persons With D Abilities. This is through the effort of Autism society of the Philippines Bacoor Chapter.

the dance number

wait 'till the daddy sees this... (lagot) lol

mama's drama

On September this year It will my 19th year of being married. How time flies my eldest will be 18 my other son will be 16 next month, they are growing up so fast and there are times they are out with their friends just like their father and Iam left alone in the house.

No more feeding bottles, no more nappies, and no more cribs in the house, I dont buy toys anymore they ask for colognes, shaving creams and things for grown ups. We used to share rooms, 2 big beds in our room for the 5 of us, when my 2 boys ask for their own room, It was the start... my boys are growing up! When I go to malls they cry when they are not with me, now I beg for them to come with me and lot of times I go out alone. I used to decide what shirt they will wear, what kind of shoes to buy, now they dont agree with my "taste" anymore. Last month my eldest was picked up from our house by his friend who has a car to spend a night in a resort, and I just realized my son has his own world, his own life, his own peers and no body can stop it, I know this will happen but I did'nt know It will be this soon.

When they were small somebody told me.. enjoy your kids, so little time to be with them, one day they will be gone and make their own life in this world. It is so true!

On the other hand, when they were small our relationship is mother and child, now we can talk like friends, we laugh, we argue like grown ups.

I have read an article about the wives putting their children first before the husband, Iam one of them, the article said husband/wife should be the priority because one day the children will leave the house for their own family and the 2 of you will be left. It's true is'nt? In my case, hayyy I think Iam only one in this family who has'nt established or not prepared and still not preparing when the time comes, Ive been very busy with my kids, husband, house and forget to communicate with other people outside the family like my friends who has been trying to find time to spend with me but I always say Iam very busy. My husband is doing very good with his job he is a manager of a co. and sorrounded with people who "needs" his attention and time, so many birthdays, fiesta, and more gatherings to attend to, which he said he cannot say "no". When he is the house he is always tired, no time to hear my stories with what happen to me the whole day Iam in the house.

Sometimes I regret I let other people decide for me, well that is the filipino tradition, I hate it! I thought it was the right thing to do, it was not.

Now, my sentiment is.... what am I going to do with my life after motherhood?

My Daughter

It was in October 1995 when the big day happened... i gave birth to a baby girl, my only girl after 2 boys. Ive been praying for a girl when I learned that I was pregnant for the 3rd time and the prayer was granted! It took a week just to pick a name for her.... and finally Ive decided to call her Michaella... my princess.

For me, she was the most beautiful baby girl Ive ever seen... after 1 1/2 years the signs are being noticed, no eye contact, does not talk she only screams very hyperactive child. Well at that time I thought it was normal and as a defense... she's late. On Christmas Day 1997, a relative told me to have her check by a doctor they were suspecting she's deaf, I know shes not, even without the doctors opinion but I also know there is a problem... deeper problem.

On January 1998 she was diagnosed having AUTISM a lifelong disability... that day was indescribable the pain was so intense my whole world collapsed... my tears flowed like a river I cannot believe that my daughter, my only daughter is autistic.

I went to seminars listen to the speakers very carefully... I bought books about it. Went to Special School and enroll her, she was only 2 years 8 mos. when she was enrolled. We went from school to school, therapist to therapist.

Now shes 12 yrs old and still in SpEd.I can proudly say she has improved beyond my expectations, her self help is excellent, she feeds herself (even cooks simple dishes) she uses the computer (shes always on youtube) she can read, she can do simple math, she speaks some words but cannot express herself fully.

If anybody has a question or if you can share some about autism please do so...

Info on Autism

My Blog Sea Shell is about my daughter Michaella, a 12 year old girl with autism, this guy really bothers me he has no idea how our heart bleed because of her condition, I know all he wants is the attention and he is getting it... if you're interested to know autism you can click on sea shell and to know autism a bit... thanks

Autism a Fraud??? by Michael Savage

This man does'nt know what he is talking about, this man is really making me angry, how can he say autism is a fraud? My daughter has autism she was diagnosed when she was only 27 months old, now she's 12 and still cannot engage in conversations. This Michael Savage talks about autism without any basis. his father was right about him he is an IDIOT and STUPID.

SAVAGE: Now, you want me to tell you my opinion on autism, since I'm not talking about autism? A fraud, a racket. For a long while, we were hearing that every minority child had asthma. Why did they sudden -- why was there an asthma epidemic amongst minority children? Because I'll tell you why: The children got extra welfare if they were disabled, and they got extra help in school. It was a money racket. Everyone went in and was told [fake cough], "When the nurse looks at you, you go [fake cough], 'I don't know, the dust got me.' " See, everyone had asthma from the minority community. That was number one.

Now, the illness du jour is autism. You know what autism is? I'll tell you what autism is. In 99 percent of the cases, it's a brat who hasn't been told to cut the act out. That's what autism is.
What do you mean they scream and they're silent? They don't have a father around to tell them, "Don't act like a moron. You'll get nowhere in life. Stop acting like a putz. Straighten up. Act like a man. Don't sit there crying and screaming, idiot."

Autism -- everybody has an illness. If I behaved like a fool, my father called me a fool. And he said to me, "Don't behave like a fool." The worst thing he said -- "Don't behave like a fool. Don't be anybody's dummy. Don't sound like an idiot. Don't act like a girl. Don't cry." That's what I was raised with. That's what you should raise your children with. Stop with the sensitivity training. You're turning your son into a girl, and you're turning your nation into a nation of losers and beaten men. That's why we have the politicians we have.

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July...

July... oh July... The month of my birthday, I should be happy I will be celebrating my birthday again but every July Iam feeling lonely and down. This month reminds me of the person who gave birth to me and gave me away. Iam getting old every year but the feeling stays. I found my birth certificate, my real birth certificate and it was written Iam the 6th child it means I have 5 siblings.... I always wonder where they are and how they looked like, it seems I will be wondering my whole life

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME...

It's my Birthday

Few days from now Ill be celebrating my birthday... last night while I was just looking I found "gifts" for myself, these few pieces I fell inlove with, it is very noticeable all are multi-colored, I don't know why but I like designs like this... can u pick one for me?

These are with diamonds and Ruby (my birthstone is ruby). Bad thing I cannot afford any of these ;-(

Prepaid electricity

This morning accdg. to Umagang Kayganda, there will be a preapaid electricity in our country, is this good? I think it is... Prepaid means pay first before use, so if we are on prepaid we will consume less. And also the electric co. will no longer be the victim of those electric thieves... so we will not be paying the system loss anymore.. perfect! more goodness about this.. the electric co. will be shouldering the cost of prepaid meters and no deposits will be collected for this.